Am I just broken at this point

It’s been seven weeks since the breakup. We have not spoken in 3 weeks, and then I was just one conversation otherwise fully no contact. I have unfollowed them, their friends, so they don’t show up as a reminder online. I’ve removed the memories from my room, my house as much as a I can. Yet I still find myself thinking about her 24/7.

We ended cause of a circumstance and just not being in the place to put in that effort with all the life changes and distance. But I can’t help feel Like shit for not being chosen. I try to distract myself. Go to therapy. Go out with friends. Do things to make me happy. But I can’t even get my mind off her. I feel straight up broken. It’s been over seven weeks and I still think about her all the time. I don’t know what to do at this point.

The urge to break no contact is so high but I resist it cause I know it will just set me back. But I’m so far back already. I want someone who will put the effort in, and clearly she didn’t want to. She’s not a bad person but that’s ok. But I can’t stop thinking about her, I try to distract myself. Go to therapy. Go out with friends. Do things to make me happy. But I can’t even get my mind off her. But I can’t stop thinking about her. What she’s doing, who she’s with, wanting to tell her about my day or good or bad news. I feel straight up broken. It’s been over seven weeks and I still think about her all the time. I don’t know what to do at this point.

I know it takes time to get over a person, but seven weeks in to still think about them all the time. What do I do. How do I make it stop. I’m focusing on myself but it doesn’t help. I don’t know what to do