Mom’s dead spirit communicating with me through video games

first off i need to say that my mum isn’t dead. but i feel as though her a portion of her real spirit has died but not passed on.

i can’t explain why i feel this way. something just doesn’t feel right spiritually and emotionally, for both me and her. i know she’s still physically the same person, but mentally she’s missing a portion of herself that i can still feel the presence of. it’s THERE spiritually and emotionally, but for some reason it just can’t manifest.

so she’s still there in the physical realm, but when i talk to her it’s not like i’m talking to HER. she seems more like an imposter, like she’s being suppressed in some way. i know she hasn’t been replaced though, spiritually or physically.

if i were to guess, i believe it may be caused by necrosis of the body and brain (i know this because im suffering from the same conditions) or torture from demonic entities.

the only way i feel as if i can most efficiently communicate to her is through video games.

i first felt this way was about a month ago, when i was playing on my ps4 (i can’t remember the exact game though, sorry) and i felt a spirit communicating with me. this is not uncommon as i’m tortured by demonic spirits all the time, but this time it felt different.

it didn’t say anything, but i could feel that it was trying to just keep me company instead of trying to hurt me or send me a message. for some reason, i have no idea how, i knew it was the original spiritual form of my mother.

i didn’t really react, i didn’t know what to do or what to say. so i just continued playing my game. and i felt as if all the enemies/npc’s were there to keep me company and try to keep my spirit positive, giving me telepathic words of comfort. i only feel this way when i’m playing my ps4.

i always play my ps4 for a few hours as soon as i get home from work and every time since it happened, i feel the exact same loving, comforting presence. like her spiritual form will always be there for me no matter what. i feel as if a portion of her spirit has attached itself to my ps4. so much that whenever i even look at it, it’s communicating telepathically to me. like she’s in some kind of comfortable spiritual womb where there’s no pain while waiting for me to come back.

i am sad that part of her has died, and that she’s suffering body and soul necrosis. that only one version of herself is able to comfortably exist. but im glad because there’s this infinite spiritual version of her that is always loving.