Does anyone feel a closer connection to God when they’re high?

whenever i’m high, i feel as though i have a closer connection to God. i feel like it’s easier to communicate with him.

yesterday he communicated telepathic messages to me, showing me the corpses of everyone i know and forcing me to go through a false process of dying (this happens every time i get high). he also shows me visions and physical sensations, as well as the psychological torture, of the afterlife.

i have to go through this bad process multiple (maybe hundreds of) times before i start to feel good.

does this happen to anyone else? is it a positive experience or am i alone in having negative experiences?