I wish people would stop fucking asking if I’m okay

It’s been 5 days since my boyfriend of 5 years passed and everyday people have just been bombarding me with the same messages “are you okay?” “How are you?” “You’re so strong just know he’s always with you” of course I’m not fucking okay why is that even a question? The love of my life is dead, I’m traumatized, and I just wanna die. All I keep thinking about is killing myself. I’m not strong at all, I have no choice! And telling me that he’s still with me isn’t giving me the peace I’m looking for me, he might be here with me spiritually but I NEED to see him physically here with me. It’s killing me inside knowing there’s nothing I can do to bring him back.