Living in the U.S. makes me distraught

I don't mean to go on and on and on about this but I am petrified for my life.

This is why I'm a virgin in my 20's and never had sex, because I don't have the money to get an abortion, since my insurance plan doesn't cover the cost of abortion. Also, with Roe vs Wade being overturned I'm afraid of the fact that my state can change its decision at any moment to ban abortion. I am not safe.

I hate that my OBGYN tells me that I can't get a hysterectomy until I get my physical health under control. I understand that, but it's going to take me YEARS to lose all of this weight since my body isn't good at losing weight and keeping it off due to congenital problems I have. And I especially HATE it when men tell me to keep my uterus. First of all, I am 110% sure that I never want kids. I am not fit to be a parent. I'm too selfish and care too much about my own money to take care of a child. Secondly, even if I get a hysterectomy, I can keep my ovaries and that won't affect my hormones. When it comes to hysterectomys they can remove the uterus, cervix, and fallopian tube but not the ovaries because I need hormones to survive.

Plus, I can't stand my periods. They always make me bed-ridden and unable to work. I need to work and my periods prevent me from doing that, and birth control isn't enough to control my menstrual cycle.

I just hate this economy, omfg. Everything is expensive and the blue states who seem to "care" about human rights tend to be the most expensive states to live in, that it makes it almost impossible to survive financially without going homeless. While the red states are more affordable but they care less about the well being of others, and love to dehumanize minorities. It's like I can't actually live and feel safe without always being on guard. I've been almost raped twice and because of this I am scared of getting pregnant. God, why can't abortion be more accessible and why does my body have to be up for debate all of the time?! It's none of your goddamn choice to choose what a woman or an AFAB person wants to do with their body. It's just disgusting how women, POC, and the LGBTQ+ community cannot live in goddamn peace without their rights to their body being up for debate by other people. God, I hate life rn.

All I want to do is feel safe and not always be in fear for my life.