Struggling with my diagnosis

Hey everyone I just got diagnosed about a month ago and I’m on a GLP-1 and some low dose cholesterol and blood pressure medicines to lower risk of heart attack and stroke even though I don’t have high blood pressure. I’m 36 years old and I’ve been about 250lbs for 20 years.

Yes I knew I had a strong family history and I should have taken steps to keep from getting it in my 30s.

I’m so depressed after my diagnosis. I’m doing everything I’m supposed to do. My glucose levels are in the 90s-140 and I’m miserable. I push through but I’m constantly tired and down. I have to see a rheumatologist for possible Lupus or RA. I’m sorry to be dramatic. Thank you