Annoyed at all the “signs”

I’m so tired of being hyper-aware of all the possibilities and signs of pregnancy 24/7. Every month something is off by a few days, a few symptoms, anything. And then my period always comes, obviously. It’s been going on 3 years now which isn’t the longest but it’s not fun. This month, it’s a new one. 5 days after my period I start spotting. It’s been for 3 days, each time only once with just a little bit of blood with a wipe. I know it’s not pregnancy but everything says implantation bleeding. But it can’t be pregnancy. There’s no other symptoms of any issues so it’s just random bleeding outside of my cycle. But why does it have to happen? My brain sees it and immediately wants to hope. I’m annoyed at myself for even thinking to write this.