I'm feeling really confused

I'm not really sure how I'd start this, so I guess I'll just delve into it. I'm an amab who enjoys masculine things and presenting in a masculine fashion, if you saw me on the street and talked to me for 5 minutes, you'd fully assume that I'm a straight up dude. And that's the thing, I'm wondering if I am or not. I like being muscular and dominant, but I can also relate to NBs, and have been identifying as one for a while now. I've just started to question if I've been faking it this whole time, because I really like it when my girlfriend (who is also trans) refers to me as her"Boyfriend" or "Husband/Hubby". I get gender envy from monstrous characters in media, but mostly just ones that are muscular and imposing (eg: Nemesis, Pyramid head, and Venom). I feel like I'm non-binary, but I still really like being manly, is that possible, or am I just a dude trying to be included?