feeling guilty for choosing d&e

I had my d&e 2 weeks ago at 22 weeks for triploidy. It was my first pregnancy. I know my baby went to sleep with the anesthesia and didn't feel pain, but I keep thinking about the process and feeling bad I didn't go through with labor. I was just dissociating through the trauma and wanted to be put to sleep. I was so overwhelmed and so I chose what felt right at the time. I loved/love my daughter so so much and I miss having her in my belly everyday.

We got her footprints, I'm getting her ashes, and I have lots of 20 week ultrasound photos and I treasure these items. I also was lucky to have very empathetic and caring doctors. So my experience with the procedure was probably as good as it could have been.

I wouldn't say I'm having full on regret as I don't know how I would have coped with choosing l&d. I guess if anyone also chose d&e and experienced moments of guilt or regret for not getting to see/hold your baby, how did you cope? What helped you? Thank you all <3