Day 1 of Quitting

Hello all, this is the first time posting but I have read a lot of your stories that have helped me decide to quit Suboxone.

Long story short, I was an IV Heroin user for about 5 or 6 years and then was put on suboxone and was taking 8-16mg per day for another 5 years. I tapered down to almost nothing 2 years ago and then decided to use Kratom to help me jump. BIG MISTAKE! I immediately started abusing Kratom and started taking very potent extracts and ended up in full blown addiction. I spent thousands of dollars on that shit and just couldn't quit after many attempts. I lied to my fiance many times to the point that she left me in Arizona and moved back to Michigan.

Quitting Kratom was the hardest thing that I've ever done, worse than heroin, so my psychiatrist put me on suboxone again. Even on suboxone I felt crazy Kratom withdrawals for about a month.

I've been 4 months clean from Kratom, have moved back to Michigan, and am ready to get off of the subs. My fiance is completely against suboxone and said that she won't see me until I can piss clean from all drugs (besides weed) including subs. I've tapered myself down from 16mg per day down to .5mg or 1mg every other day and today I've decided to be done with this shit and I'm excited to be completely free of being dependent on something just to feel okay, but I have PTSD from my many times of going cold turkey off Heroin that I'm deathly afraid of the withdrawls.

I gave all of the rest of my strips to my Mom and told her that I'm done. I'm stocking up on vitamins and supplements and got a script for Gabapentin and Clonodine, so I'm hoping it won't be too bad. I'm off work for a week, do you guys think I will be okay to go back to work in a week without feeling sick?

Any advice is welcome. Pray for me! 🙏

Thanks