I don’t think I’ll ever be over cigarettes

I’m a 22 year old male, been smoking since I was 16. I couldn’t even count how many attempts of quitting I have failed. Currently I’ve been smoke free for a month. I’m sitting in my car trying to find a good enough reason for my addicted brain to have one. I know as soon as I light a cigarette up I’ll regret it instantly because If I could I would pay thousands to finally be free from this addiction, but at the same time I really want to smoke. I’m fucked