Today is making me want to drink

I have to know what’s going on in the world for my job. I care about it so much- my job is what saved me from killing myself when I was at the bottom of 700 handled of vodka.

Since I have been sober I have not had the urge to drink. Until today. I’ve had fleeting thoughts. But never a strong— I need a drink NOW— kind of feeling.

I don’t know how to handle this. I have money sitting in my bank account to spend….i want some whiskey so bad.