Kindly advise, really worried.
I'm 26F and already out of the race of SSC CHSL. I graduated in 2024 ( late due to course switch and several health issues.) It's really crucial for me to crack this exam as it's taking a terrible toll on my mental health being unemployed for so long. I don't have any friends or support system in this journey either. Watching my parents age and fall sick fills me with guilt and I'm stressing even further. Last year I was battling 16 + medical issues and I live with a chronic illness. I struggle with that illness but still it doesn't make me eligible for any reservation whatsoever although it does hamper my life and skills.
I'm adding this information only to stress how dire it is for me to get good guidance right now so kindly read on and help.
This will be my 3rd attempt at CGL but the one with the most preparation. Indecisiveness and health issues couldn't lead to success in the previous two but I've consistently and gradually improved in every exam.
My record: 1. Chsl'22: 87.5 2. MTS'22: 102/150 3. CGL'23: 98-->111 4. Chsl'23: 99-->105 5. Selection post X: 65/100- 105/200 6. Selection post XII:70/100 117.5/200 7. Selection post Graduation: 66/100 - 115.5/200 8. Chsl'24: 120/200
English and Reasoning are strong points, I consistently score 47-48 in both. But I struggle with maths and GS.
- Quants- ARITHMETIC : barring couple chapters, I've completed and revised all chapters of ARITHMETIC but the main issue is practice, I've practiced enough questions of individual chapters but in mocks and exams I still can't solve questions, idk it's the time management or the pressure or simply lack of practice.
ADVANCE MATHS: completed and revised the major chapters except Geometry. But again the same issue, haven't solved ❌ questions on my own from practice sheets or elsewhere.
- GS- consistent with daily CA and have an upper hand there but CA is more prevalent in banking exams and here Static matters more. I've watched several batches of history and geography before but again different sources and not much retention there.
Polity: studied, revised and practiced enough so polity is sorted mostly.
I'm following Parmar sir's PYQ series but I've only watched 9 videos so far and there are around 30 and IRS too. I haven't studied from his batch and thus it's taking me more time to study and retain while watching PyQ.
As the cutoffs are soaring every year I know even though I scored 120 in chsl, in CGL I need to score 160-180. I'm facing frequent breakdowns to the point it's getting difficult for me to even sleep or study and I really can't afford to even waste a minute. I have come way too far to give up now and invested so much into this exam that it'll be ridiculous if I Quit now but on the other hand I don't know if I can endure one more year of unemployment. I have suffered severe depressive episodes due to the same where I was alive only on pills.
I know I'm going to give my best attempt this time but somehow it still feels that this won't be enough as I know students who practice and study a lot more than this. I'm consumed by fear. What if I don't make it, I need to be mentally prepared for the outcome and further plan.
Based on the information I provided, I need sincere advice regarding:
- Will I honestly be able to score the required marks? (160-180) And further stages?
- Should I Quit preparation and look for something else?
- Should I endure the pain of unemployment for another year, would it be worth it?
Kindly be sincere with your responses.