I can’t keep up with everything and it’s finally getting to me.
I am not sure if I am looking for advice or just need to get it all out. I am a 22f full time student with a part time job and internship. I am either at school, my internship, or work every week Mon-Sat from 9-8 most days. I just moved alone in July and adopted two cats for company. Tonight I had a pretty bad panic attack that came about because of everything I am feeling. I feel overwhelmed by my schedule and work I have to do. I stress about bills and buying food. I have a situation-ship that is confusing me. I don’t want to be a burden to the few friends I have left so I don’t reach out for help. I want that social connection but it’s getting harder to keep face. I visit my family every Sunday but there is so much negative energy that it takes a lot out of me. I have a lot of pressure from how I was raised to be the one to succeed but it is so hard. I don’t do my hobbies anymore, don’t go out like I used to, and I don’t have anyone to talk to. I would give anything to drop everything and just drive away. I am not happy and I don’t know how much more I can take before I break.