Being tired is genuinely ruining my life. Sleepy 24/7.

I just need something here. I don't care if its advice, sympathy, support or suggestions I just need a place to yell this and pray no one thinks im just being overdramatic.

The title says the basics of it. I'm so tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally. All my life (26f) I've always been pretty mentally and emotionally tired due to depression, anxiety and all the lovely things that come with growing up in this day and age. I could always deal with it, it's how I've always done it. I'd push myself through it and just keep going.

It changed around this year, I'd say around July when I started becoming extremely physically tired everyday. I've been on CPAP for 3 years now and I REFUSE to sleep without it. If I don't sleep without it I'm 10000x more tired than I would be, and that means I am basically not moving for the day. Yet even with this, I'm so exhausted. I wake up and I'm so tired. I have to use all of my energy just to get myself out of bed and after that? Nothing. I have no energy to do anything. My brain feels foggy, my limbs feel tired and weak, I find speaking or paying attention to be too much. Even after I take my morning dose of adderall (30mg) I am still TIRED. It does NOTHING for me. I've been on this for as long as I can remember, well into my early teens and we recently bumped the dosage hoping it would help but...nope. It does nothing for me, caffeine does nothing for me, sleeping the recommended hours does nothing for me, oversleeping does nothing for me.

Nothing works anymore. I just can't take it.

The part that infuriates me the most is all my doctors seem to think just pumping me full of more stimulants should fix the job. I'm at least 95% sure its not narcolepsy because other than the extreme sleepiness I don't have any of the other symptoms.

Last week I finally had an absolute breakdown in front of my mom about it. I was also dealing with the sadness of the passing of my grandma and I just kept screaming how much I just wanted to get knocked into a coma. I wanted to go into a coma so I could finally stop being tired. It's go genuinely debilitating to feel like this everyday, and no one seems to understand what its like. Everyone goes "Ha yeah I'm also really tired" but no. I know what the typical everyday tired feels like and THIS ISNT IT! Nothing in my life has changed that could've caused a sudden shift either. My life has been the same for the past 4 years now so why is this happening?

I want to be able to do things again. I want to do my hobbies, I want to go outside and exercise and do things that will help me but I can't without feeling like I'm gonna pass out. As I sit here typing this all I can think is holy shit I want to lay my head down and go to sleep. Typing this out was tiring, but I needed to scream these thoughts because this has been causing me so much stress.