i need help.

i’ve been trying to shift ever since 2020 shifttok. i’ve been off and on and taken long breaks but it’s been about 4 years now. i’ve had moments where i felt a lot of “symptoms” but i’ve never been or felt connected to my dr for even just a little bit. i’ve been doing new stuff lately that i feel will work good for me, but still waking up in my cr makes me so sad. i’ve been trying to keep a positive mindset but my thoughts keep going back to how long i’ve been trying to shift and haven’t had any significant experiences. i feel like everyone has mini shifted, heard voices from their dr, felt their surroundings change, but i haven’t experienced any of that and it’s been 4 years. and in those moments, i feel like shifting isn’t real even though i know deep down that it has too. i’ve just been feeling kinda alone and disappointed lately and it’s getting to me these past few days.