What's some of the worst things you've called your nparent in your head?

I just want to know so bad, because I am at home again after a longish time and despite myself the emotional manipulation of all those years of being my nmoms daughter is working and I am inherently programmed to feeling like a bad person when I hate her for her guts, audacity and emotional abuse.

She's just gotten so much worse with age, like goddamn. It's so much worse now, and it's also so counter intuitive since I've been an adult for 3 years now (I'm 21)

I want you guys to be really honest about this. Trust me, I won't judge you at all.