Do you feel incredibly lonely with having narc parents? Hardly anyone IRL understands. It's isolating and there is forever a void where love and validation should have been instilled by caregivers. How to cope with this?

One day, I'm up. Next day, I'm down. This is such a big loss. Irreversible loss. Loss of having good parents. I'm filled with 'why me?' all the time. I'm the chosen scapegoat and I'm filled with trauma and pessimism. I'm shy and introverted because of this abuse and I hardly get validation from people. And I especially come from a developing Asian country where it's heavily frowned upon to even talk bad about parents. Idk why I feel alone. Sure I can get love outside but it's so conditional as well. And nothing fills this deep void. I'm validation starved. I'm also love starved. I'm 25 but I feel like I have too much baggage. I feel so sad.