Christianity and hating your parents

Proverbs 20:20 Whoever curses his father or his mother, his lamp will be put out in deep darkness.

They abandoned you. Hurt you. Of course we can be angry.. Christianity is odd. It's always been odd to me but I grew up around it and always wonder if I am wrong and they are right.. idk. I opened the Bible up in a hotel and it led me to proverbs.. I'm not Christian, but it was a tool in wiring my brain as I grew. As I sit homeless, Lucky to have a week stay in a hotel, im crumbling and reached for the Bible that makes me feel more guilt.