Need some help

Having a hard time weaning off. The past 3 weeks I've been getting the 7oh pills and I wake feeling like shit every morning. It's nowhere near as bad as traditional opioid wd but it's still bad and idk what to do. My doc can't prescribe me suboxone unless I piss dirty for actual opioids. I haven't had a pill today, just powder. I'm crying and I feel like such an idiot, I've been clean off opioids for 6 years why did I do this?? I don't feel addicted like I was before I just can't deal with the wd. Like if my mood was stable I can deal with everything else. I suffer from ASD, ADHD, and Treatment Resistant Depression. Any advice is welcome.