Blacks ruined me- I'm desperate and can't continue like this

Edit- OPMS black SHOTA RUINED ME. Note to self proof read your 4am post.

Apologies for the length. After years more on than off strong pain killers through pain management due to spinal injury I knew it was time for a change in 2017. A friend recommended kratom after another friend used it to get off heroine. (That honestly should have been a huge warning) so I tapered off due to the financial strain and the memory issues I was experiencing. Looking back in sure it saved my life as this was before fentanyl was out everywhere and killing folks. Not saying I was heading there but anything is possible. Fast forward 6 years and I was taking an ounce daily. After being confronted by my husband about finances on the once daily use I started researching ways to taper and quit. I found a post that explained if you start by taking the extract shots in small quantities and taper down it would save money and allow your body to slowly taper. Not sure if that post was by the creators of extracts but I have my doubts this actually worked for any addicts. Fast forward 1 year and now I'm taking 4-6 shots of blacks ( the strongest on the market) daily. One big problem is I made friends at the smoke shop who give me free shots. But even with a few few everyday I'm chasing the next shot and spending over $300 a week. I'm truly scared to try and get off without something as I was mental unwell when I got off powder. I've tried taking a lower shot, I've tried small doses of 7OH and I'm not getting anywhere but more hooked. I've bought all the supplements with no luck there as well. I think it's time to go see an addiction Dr.

I gave a bag of powder to try and taper again and just want this crud our of my body. My skin is flaky, my hair is dull and there's definitely damage to my urinary tract as things have been out of lack for some time now. But until I'm off this black extract thread no point in addressing my secondary problems.

I'm a wife, a mother, a caregiver to my elderly father and run a busy venue. I don't have downtime to sit and ride this out in detox or rehab.