Third trimester and beginning to get nervous

I am almost 32 weeks and things have really gotten intense pretty fast. The back aches, waddling, discomfort. But what’s really getting to me is the looming feeling of knowing postpartum is near. Don’t get me wrong I cannot wait to meet our little guy, but my anxiety recently went from about a 2 to a 9 in the last two weeks. I felt like I had so much time all of pregnancy to mentally prepare, but I don’t feel prepared enough after all these months. Hoping someone who has had kids before can let me know some great things to look forward to in the newborn stage. I see mostly scary negative things online.