Update: Stealing Time From The Faulty Plan

First I want to take the time to thank every single one of you that sent those vibrations and the ones that took the time to comment. I literally read her every comment but one (you know who you are asshole). They were so beautiful and gave the whole family a lift. I did my best to respond to as many of you as my emotions allowed and I didn’t, please don’t take it personally.

So now onto the update. She had this thing in her brain called an an arteriovenous malformation (AVM). It is basically an abnormality in the brain that forms randomly right after birth and is where arteries run directly into veins with no capillary connections. They will often lead to brain bleeds at some point and there is no way of knowing it’s there until something goes wrong. The way hers was situated it was compressing the blood and made the doctors think the bleeding had stabilized, but it had not and she had a liter of blood trapped under her brain. They discovered the AVM while they did surgery to relieve the pressure on her brain. When they attempted to fix the AVM, that liter of blood was released and that was the moment that we lost the Meredith we all know and loved forever. She’s still with us. She responds to physical stimuli, but there is no hope for recovery.

We are in the process of organ donation right now so we still have a couple of days with her. I found out we can have our dogs in the room with her so I’m going to get them today as well a couple of things that I know she would with her at the end (don’t worry a friend is driving me). I know this wasn’t the update anyone was hoping for, but I plan on keeping her memory alive in many ways, but especially in this community that she loved and brought her so much happiness and joy (if you feel like taking part in any of those, I promise to post updates about when they’re happening on the sub). I mentioned in a few comments that she didn’t feel like she belonged or was accepted in a lot of places, but this band and this community made her feel loved and accepted and I want to thank of all for the happiness you brought her through the years.

I know this was not the update you guys were hoping for but thank you for all the love and support and if you want to here some stories about Meredith let me because I have a ton to share.

P.S. Everyone seemed to enjoy the pics so I’ve attached more. Some Phish shows, some are other bands, a couple are from the Great American Beer Fesy, one is at the Colorado RenFair, and I included the dog tax at the end there plus a coupleof our lizard Rutherford the Brave (who she’ll be reunited with soon).