Abu bohat daant tay hain

I dont know what happened with me during and after covid. I became distant, and now even if i want to talk to my parents i get ignored or my opinion just gets slide away. Allhamdullah for everything but i noticed my dad going more harsh on me, btw i am 17M. My older brother is a very successful son but i cannot match up to him. I realized that the more i spoke, gave opinion or put myself near parents the more scolding or side eye i would get. So i forced myself to become isolated. My dad would say "ham nay to kuch nahin kia and would say kia hamaray pass thorns hain jis ki wajah say beth tay nahin ho aur kamray main bhaag jatay ho" i tested out my theory recently, i sat with dad more and guess what? got scolded because of walking quickly or sometimes i dont even know but my pants would cover ankles so he would shout even infront of kaam wala to lift it . He would always tell me in a very attitude way to i dont even remember some dhikrs after every prayer which i often forget. Every week or so i get a 30 40 min lectures of how i didnt meet his expectations of not closing the bathroom door, not cleaning my table, not putting the hair dryer back to its place. He told me the scolding is for my benefit. I am starting to hate him because there is already soo much studies and shit going on. I feel bad later on of how much work he does and i couldnt live up to his expectations like my brother. My moms chill but my dad controls everything from office to my monthly transactions.. I have my birthday coming up lets see if he remembers it without being reminded by mom.

I am sorry if it wasnt ur time but i wanted to let it out any how i love my dad even if he beats me up i love him but i cant express it i just get nervous whenever i am around him

Edit: OMG! Thankyou everyone for kind responses and encouraging me to love my dad even more ( i hugged him ) and he got confused but he apologised for the scolding. I feel sorry for people who lost their parents. i can't imagine how people live after their parents' death, and i dont know how i will Allah tala har kisi kay parents ko lambi zindagi naseeb farmaye saholat, afiyat, sehat aur asani say. And those jin ki death hogaye hay unko jannat ul firdous ata farmaye. Amen