No Need For a Spiritual Circus
There is no need to accumulate anything to recognize your true nature. It’s already here, clear and obvious, when you stop chasing. The search itself is the trap.
Ask yourself: What’s aware of all this chasing? What’s noticing the wanting, the doubting, the seeking? That awareness is constant, is it not? It is the one thing you cannot deny. It is present no matter what’s going on. It doesn’t need fixing, upgrading, or special magic.
The spiritual journey isn’t about becoming anything. It’s about seeing what you’ve never stopped being. No guru, mantra, or mystical experience will give you that. They can only point you back to what’s already here: this.
All of the apparent trappings that come along with collecting mantras, practices, ideas, concepts, and so-called "achievements" are for the small-self only.
Stop running. Stop waiting for some grand awakening. You’re already home.