I’m Done With Existing

I’m 15 years old, with no social connections outside of school, and very little with my own family. I’ve always been forgotten since fifth grade since I never had a phone until November of 2024. No one takes me seriously, because I played games all the time and did turn in any homework in middle school, now that reputation carried into high school and I have little to no chances at making actual connections. I decided to find out if I was truly hated by asking a girl out in freshman year, then I was rejected, which I wasn’t surprised, but it meant that I was really not wanted in the world. I know that I definitely have a mental issue other than depression, but my family just shrugs it off and tells me that there is nothing wrong with me. This is the worst part of it as I have never gotten closure of my mental health, with my family just pretending that I’m “normal”, which I know I’m not. Now I feel the emptiest in my life as I don’t even want to end it, nor do I want to do anything at all, I simply want to just not exist anymore. I have some talents but kids at my school will not see me change because they don’t want me to change, but they still despise me regardless of if I am actually succeeding or not. Now I have above a 3.0 gpa and a phone and am still not finished with getting better, but my classmates still see the same person from freshman year. I don’t know what to do anymore I just felt like I needed to get that off of my chest