Playing video games is scary to me now

Hello everyone, I'm sorry if the title seems crazy but I'm being dead serious. So I've always loved playing video games ever since I was a young child. Now this year, I started playing far cry 5 during April. Everything was fine until I lost my grandmother in June.. I picked the game again at the end of June.. then I lost my mom suddenly in July. Now.. I know this is crazy, but I'm afraid of playing games again.. its like I associate them with losing a loved one. I always used to sit in the kitchen with my parents and play on my computer. Now I just can't do that.. i still love games but I'm just so scared.. how do I deal with this? Did this ever happen to anyone of you?