No direction...

It's been a bit over 3 months since I escaped and cut off the person who groomed me (17m). We used to talk so much for the 9 months I knew him. Although free, I feel his absence. Other people close to me don't reach out. I have tried to engage with people in real life, trying my best to be kind, but it's in vain; they have found others who I assume can offer more than I can. I can't blame them. I'm not that interesting... only some dude who sometimes cries about being lonely and touch-starved. I am scared that I did something and that I'm avoided because people hate me...

I have tried to make other friends, but I'm afraid. After all that grooming, I can't trust anymore.

I feel... lost...

I'm sorry...