I changed, for you

Hey, its been a while since we last talked and I cant live with this silence anymore. I have been working on myself lately, found new hobby's and gotten stronger mentallly. I told you I would do this, as I would never lie to you. My life looks different now, and I feel stronger.

But still I feel this emptiness in my heart and soul. I have tried to fill the void, and open my up for new relations but I can't do it. I try to find you in everything and everyone. You appear frequently in my dreams, and live rent free in my mind. Even though it has been a while, my flame has never faded. I saw every inch of you, and to me you will always be the most beautiful girl on this planet.

I do not only miss what we were, but I miss you. How you are, your personality and how you live your life. I have made many mistakes in the past, and learned a lot from these. I never want to make these mistakes again, and give you what you so deserve. Someone that will listen to you, and hear what you say. Someone who will stick by your side no matter what. Someone who will make you feel loved. Someone who will take you out spontaneously. Someone who will do anything for you when youre feeling down. And someone who will care for you when youre sick

I have come to realise that I have not been this person back then. Maybe I was not ready, or maybe I was too busy with my home situation. But I have become a different person, because I wanted to. A person that js worthy of you, and able to give you all the love that you so deserve. It has been my missions ever since, and I put all on the line to become this.

I do not care what others might think, I want to love you and only you across the entire world. Because for me, you are the only one. There is no place I can call home, for you are my home.

I have no leverage at all, but I will ask you for 1 day. 1 day to come together to talk and do something fun. I have already planned this full day, from early morning to late evening. Or until you want to leave. You do not have to do anything for this, except to be present. I can pick you up and drop you off if you want, but you can also come yourself. I will not expect anything in return.

If after this hopefully fun day, you still do not have a good feeling about it, know thats okay. I know there is a reasonable chance for that. I will go through hell a thousand times to have you, for you are the fire I can't loose

I love you R