Took an edible after 84 days sober- what I learned

So last night I was feeling the effects of a lot of stress in my life recently and on a whim decided to go buy edibles. After taking one I felt instant regret and panic at what I was doing. I felt scared how I'd react since my tolerance used to be high when I used and now it had been almost 3 months. I got wingstop and tried to chill out, binged a bunch of junk food like I used to when I was a hardcore stoner. But to my disappointment, it didn't feel the same. Like the "magic" of getting high is just ruined for me. Once the edible was hitting I didn't feel happy or relaxed just wanted to be sober. The high felt like it lasted forever because I just wanted it to be over with. The next morning I threw the edibles away and even put trash on top of it so I couldn't go back and dig it out. I felt guilty and ashamed but then I realized I learned a lesson and that's a good thing. I really feel even more confident now about staying sober. And the fact I made it 84 days is really impressive and that means I am capable of going without weed. And I'll do it again.

So anyways I feel like relapsing was an important lesson for me and if anything I feel more affirmed in my decision to quit seriously. Now that I know I genuinely don't get that comfort that getting high used to give me. I'd rather just cope with stress and life's shit sober. Starting over with today being my new "day one". I don't really care how many times I have to start over because I'm going to get more determined and I know I'm capable of making it through without weed.

I wanted to share if anyone else relates or has had similar challenges with getting sober. I've really been relying on this sub heavily throughout my journey and I'm grateful for each of y'all that have given encouragement.