please motivate me to stop

i’ve been trying and trying but it’s so hard to stop when your body feels like it’s gunna go out and buy more. it feels like i already made the decision to smoke. everything in me from every atom in my body to the fingers on my hand are saying go smoke everything in me except the small quiet voice telling me to stop. everything in me is pointing and pulling me to go smoke and it’s the hardest thing ever to actually pull through and not listen to my body. please i truly beg i need motivation to quit i need to be reminded why im here to stop why it’s worth it why i need to stop and why it was a positive outcome for you