How programmers actually work in real work?

Hi, so, the question is in the topic, but I can explain. I don't have any related people who work in IT, so, I decided to ask others who work in this sphere to clarify.

I am for some reason worried that I won't make it at all in this industry. I make completely trashy games that people don't play, no matter how hard I try. I spend most of my time browsing the web for solutions to my problem, or using AI for help when I don't understand something and need better explanation. Like when I want to add a feature and I understand it's core logic, but don't understand how to make it, I Google it or ask AI. I first made excuses like, "Oh, I am just trying to stand on the shoulders of other people and not inventing a wheel." Its like, first I have an idea, write its logic in words, then based on that, I search for answers on Google. And I spend most of my time in making my game by first searching how to make it, and based on that, spend other most of my time debugging what I found and making sure it satisfied my needs, because often, I don't find direct answers.

I read some posts about this topic, and they kinda split. Some say, that "googling" and using AI in your work will make you a bad programmer, some say the opposite, it speeds up the process, allowing you to focus on other aspects of your product.

But I don't know, in movies and books, programmers seem like to be some badass geniuses that can hack entire databases without a sweat or make something genius out of air using nothing, only their brains. And if I apply that logic on myself, I use my brain and brains of thousands of people across the internet to get what I want.

And that kinda wraps things up. I just want to make sure that I am not being delusional and not living in a world of illusions. Maybe some people who have experience in working in big or small tech companies and faced that reality, can share their experience so that I know what to be prepared for?

Thanks for reading (: