How do you handle LOA if you have BPD?

I’m not diagnosed, I’m 17 but I have all of the traits which can make it hard for me to manifest my desires

An example of this would be manifesting a SP to be different to you but I’m always devaluing them in my mind, the things they’re doing really aren’t all that bad but I perceive it as worse and like they don’t care about me in the slightest and I nit pick every single thing they do or say (this SP is a platonic / familial connection and I have to live with them)

I also often struggle with self concept work because I feel like I don’t actually deserve good things no matter how much I say otherwise

I need to get a job bc of 3D circumstances and I know exactly what job I want (to be an actor) but people always tell me it’s unrealistic (which I try to ignore bc I shouldn’t let others decide what I can or can’t do) but the problem is that when a 3D circumstance comes up, it genuinely feels like the end of the world to me even though I know it’s not so I find it hard to stay persistent with my symptoms