Just need to vent
Not being a "nerd" and not being "athletic" Makes me feel like I'm the dullest tool in the shed sometimes. I thought I was just lazy or that I didn't find what I love doing but it was mostly because I didn't have the physical energy and mental focus to do what I wanted or even stay consistent.
I'm not good at anything at this age and before that I was always sleepy and never felt like I had the energy to do anything. I only have 2 years left and I'm gonna step into the World of Jobs. Gosh, why did I choose a blue collar job. I wanted to be a nurse but I wasn't accepted for that either.
Always told myself before I knew about this genetic condition that everything will fall into place as soon as puberty completes and now I'm not even sure whether that'll happen with inconsistent doses because of financial issues. Everything is just constantly worrying me and what's been and for the past months I haven't slept straight.
The worry of the levels dropping and having to take another shot spending that money again. The worry if my brother and dad could continueworking hard living paycheck to paycheck and simultaneously paying for treatments. The worry if anything will ever workout as nothing has ever went as I desired it to be or as I planned it to be.
Has anyone here ever felt the same way?