Tell me about a time you felt closest to Allah

Salam,

I definitely feel everyone’s relationship with god is deeply personal and almost unexplainable at times.

I love hearing stories about people’s experience with closeness to Allah.

For me, it was my birth experience. One morning I woke up and stood up and blood just began pouring out through my pants. I rushed to the hospital then eventually was rushed into emergency surgery for a c-section at 30 weeks pregnant. I almost died on the OR table along with my baby but I kept making duas.

Then afterwards, they brought me back to my room and she was in the NICU. I was hooked up to many machines and couldn’t move out of the bed due to pain, and I also had no one else in the hospital with me (my partner was a abuser and left me at the hospital alone). The hospital kept serving me pork for every meal (despite me telling them no pork) as well so I was not even eating.

I remember sitting in this bed feeling so lifeless and hopeless in a way- I had no one there, I didn’t have my baby in my arms, I couldn’t eat, I was in pain, I felt like my body was just butchered, pregnancy hormones were also WILD… etc

The first night I was alone after the birthI prayed the entire night in my hospital bed in tears. Because the only one I could truly rely on was the one who made me.

Even when I think back to that moment I can’t help but to cry because I was in so much pain internally and externally as well. Soooo deeply emotional experience.

I would love to hear about others experiences. I find it very beautiful and enlightening