Revert with an std

Assalamu Alaykum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuh.

I just wanted to get out here and ask am i doomed to be alone for the rest of my life because i have an std?

I have felt so shitty for over half a year and i have kept repenting and repenting. Astagfirullah once or twice i even thought about suicide because of this. This didnt even happen because of my will its horrible.

Im scared i will be alone for the rest of my life cause idk if i can simply do that since i want to have kids with their father being present and not in medical ways.

I feel so disgusted and the shame and depression is lowkey getting to me.

Please no judging cause right now its the last thing i need.

JazakhAllah khayr