Am i an INFJ despite not knowing myself?

Hello everyone. I know this question has been asked a lot, but I didn't find an answer in other posts, so I'm sorry, but I'll try to explain my situation.

I don't know myself. I've been typed as ENFP, then ENTP, but I finally don't know if I'm an extrovert. Actually, in order to be liked, I may have been faking extroversion. For several years, I craved it, and I was always trying to befriend everyone I'd meet. But while I love meeting people, I need a lot of alone time. For example, now it's summer, I work as a fisherman and meet a lot of people, and when I go back home I just want to be alone to recharge.

So I considered INFJ, but I don't know... The thing is, once I think I'm a certain type, I literally become it. Be it ENFP, ENTP, or now INFJ... And I literally forget who I was before. I know it's a bad thing, but I can't help but do it. At the same time, I really want to know myself more.

But I'm doubting because I feel like I would like to know I'm an INFJ. Probably because I'm a Christian and feel like it's the best personality to be a good one, as Jesus was one. So it may affect my reasoning. But it doesn't mean I'm not an INFJ...

On one hand, I don't think I'm a thinker because, while I extremely value logic, I think I'm slightly more prone to choose not to hurt others' feelings. And as I said, I think I'm an introvert and an intuitive. So a priori there's only INFP or INFJ, but I don't relate to INFP's creativity (I don't like fiction, I don't feel the need to express myself with arts, etc.), and I don't think I understand myself well... I think, lol.

But, to finish, I'm doubting I'm an INFJ because:

• I don't really get the Ni function. Like, yes, I feel like I'm very, very good at having intuition when it comes to understanding people's actions. I feel like I understand the core of the action, what's behind it. Also, when I study, I think I use Ni as well because I gather a lot of information. If I were to have the exam two hours before the test, even though I'd have studied, I'd get a bad grade because I don't know any details, only the central point of it. But minutes before the test, I know "everything" because I memorized the details. I can't do it backwards. But apart from that, I don't know if I use my intuition that much. Maybe I do it without knowing... Maybe not. I understand Ne more, but I'm afraid it's just because I thought I was ENFP/ENTP and emulated it for years...
• I can be very cold sometimes. Like if something very bad happens, I may not feel anything. Entire coldness. It's only when I'd meet someone who's deeply affected by the event that I'd be affected as well... I think (but again... I really don't know myself well). But I think it's not the event itself that affects me, but seeing people crying, etc.
• As for Se, it's true that I had some overeating problems, but now that's better. Also, when I was young, I didn't pay attention to my environment. Even now, at 21, I still have a very, very bad sense of orientation. Also, I failed my driver's license test three times, but maybe it was just because of the stress involved. But I love doing sports, and I can't imagine myself not being fit.
• Finally, I think I want to stand out. Like being recognized as the kindest, for example. That's why I never know if I'm kind for people or for myself to be liked by them. I think, at the same time, I want them to be well, but also to recognize me as the cause of their well-being... This doesn't really sound like INFJ, from what I understand.

Sorry for being that long (and for the possible mistakes, i don't speak english very well. and it's been reviewed by chatgpt so i may sound impersonal lol). Thank you so much in advance for your replies.