kicked out during senior year with 1.1 gpa

i’m an 18 year old girl & i’m suppose to be a senior this year. the last time i was in school was on the last day of junior year. my school is a public school but you have to apply to get in & they pretty much randomly let people in so it’s not really based on grades like they say. the school has a dumb policy where if you fail your major (mine was business) for all three trimesters, then you get “RTD” meaning returned to your school district since the school is an out of district school. i have been failing since freshman year. i don’t know the exact reason but i think it may just have been mental illness & a lack of support at home. parents never asked about grades or anything so i never had any motive & didn’t see a point in doing work. i wanted to, but could never bring myself to submit or even do any work, idk why, hence why i say, most likely undiagnosed mental illness. anyway, i am suppose to be a senior now & i have not been in any school since september. my whole life has fallen apart. i knew i was getting kicked out in june but school already started & everyday i’m at home while everyone’s at school making their way to their high school diploma. idk what to do. i’m not in any school because the schools in my area are horrible so i will not go there & the other school i would’ve went to is a little out of district but i can’t go because they say i don’t live in the town even though it’s like three blocks away & a town over.

since freshman year, i failed my major class all three trimesters. the first year they had a summer credit recovery program which was a one time thing because of covid so i went & was able to stay for sophomore year. sophomore year i failed all three trimesters again & did summer school for regular classes & had to have an appeal meeting with officials & my parents to basically beg why i should stay & promise i will pass my major for the next year. junior year…the same thing happened… & they did not want to hear me out. this angers me because i know these traumatic events that i could not foresee ever happening to me would never happen to anyone else in the entire school. i know i brought this on myself but…idk. there’s more to say but the last time i checked i specifically have a 1.183 for a gpa. i did not know how bad that was till i looked in this subreddit. i’m so sad & angry. my life is over. i’m suppose to be applying for a great college on my way to study dermatology or something like that.

the crazy part is, i’m extremely more intelligent that the average student. if i’d done the work since freshman yr, my gpa would probably be like a 3.3-3.8 right about now i’m certain. i did not apply myself. none of the work was hard, i just could not bring myself to do any work no matter what. i just sat in every class for eight hours everyday doing absolutely nothing. wasting my life & no one told me what the consequences would be.

i don’t want to go to community college then transfer, but then again, idk what i want to do now. my life is over i feel. i have missed four months of school already.

someone please tell me what can i do or is my life completely ruined ?!