People who watch H3 regularly are friendless. I was one of them.

When I graduated college, I went from a vibrant city school back to my parents house in rural suburb for 2 years. While in school I liked Frenemies, but I never got hooked on the rest of the H3 content because, plainly, I had more interesting things to do and more motivation to pursue my growth.

Most of the few friends I had from my hometown had moved away by the point where I came back, and I spent the vast majority of my time alone and depressed. I became borderline addicted to H3 content. I watched every time they streamed, all the way through. Hours of content a week.

Because I was so down on myself, I grew bitter. I latched onto Ethan's crass nature and started to adopt it myself. I normalized the way he spoke about others and took his word for everything. I was deeply entrenched in the H3verse, paid for a membership, and bought Teddy Fresh. It felt good to be part of a community, and powerful to be so hateful and encouraged for it.

After Oct. 7th, I didn't know what I would do. I knew he was wrong about near everything he was saying about it but I couldn't let go, him and the crew felt like my only friends and it seemed like the only people who understood me were in the "family". I knew all of the lore and felt close to the crew. I tried and failed to wane off multiple times.

Then I moved out with my partner and moved back to the city. I got a job. I started doing clubs. I pursued art and adopted a hobby. I got into cooking. I took walks in a place where I simply loved to breathe the air. My life began to change for the better and I was finally in a space where I could grow without judgement.

The speed at which H3 left my life was miraculous, to the point where I didn't even notice its absence. I even tried to go back early on. I winced at the way he attacked others for the most innocuous transgressions. Since then I have been aware of its steady decline, and commented on it here. I'm still a bit angry, but mostly at myself I think at this point.

To anyone who is well adjusted, Ethan is clearly as sad, sad man. I hope he finds peace and can move on from all the hurt one day. It's people like him who end up in bad situations and everyone asks, "how did we not realize?" The way he's burning everything down right now is such a red flag.

Just some food for thought.