How did your relationship with sex evolve as your transitioned?

Especially if you transitioned later in life.

I ask because I've always known I was trans, but it took me a whole to transition and in the process I think I have developed the habit of totally disassociating during sex so I can view what's going on almost as if I was watching porn of a man and a woman (I'm bi, so this worked for my brain), but now that I feel very masculine I have moments where I'm so in the moment and involved, which are often twarted by dysphoria. Only 6m on T, top surgery in 6 weeks, so I know in my core that so much is going to change. I see the growing comfort, the embracing of my sexuality, the shedding of sexual shame.

I'm just curious how other people experienced this and what the process looked like for y'all