i’m so confused if i want phalloplasty or not

like, i WANT it, i want a dick so bad, but i’m so scared sex and else won’t feel as good or will feel different. honestly i know it will solve some of my dysphoria, but the thing is most of my bottom dysphoria is only during sex, and if i don’t enjoy it as much it won’t change anything, it’ll make it probably worse if i can’t feel shit like before. i do enjoy intercourse with what i have for now, but i think i would only like having a dick if i was born with it, but every ftm wishes that i think :// i want to get top surgery and go on testosterone, but i don’t know about bottom surgery. i’m so confused. like, WHAT DO I GET. i want to enjoy sex as much as before, and i don’t want complications or stuff and all, like the decision is so stressful. i think i just wish i was born another way :((