Does T make you gain weight?

Im completely terrified of this side effect. And some sources say you loose weight and others say you gain. I struggle from an ED and have recently started recovering and I’ve been doing really well, but I’m terrified that if I gain weight on T that I’ll relapse. Honestly the whole concept of losing control over my body scares me. I know a lot of it is fat distribution and that but do you genuinely gain a lot of weight? I know that it’s different for everyone.