I hate to admit that the Dadbod is real

Today I weighed myself the first time this year and I have never seen my weight this high. Clothes have gotten uncomfortably tight. Embarrassingly some of my elastic pants like sweats have gotten uncomfortably tight too. I'm 5'7 and 177lbs now and I've NEVER been unable to fit in a size medium shirt or pants. The only thing that's keeping me from sizing up to a large is the current trend of baggy more relaxed fit clothing.

I'm a dad of 2 babies under 2. I've been an early morning gym goer and or runner for well over 10 years now. I used to judge other men who used "dadbod" and their kids as an excuse. I never thought I'd be the same, but here I am.

I always thought I could easily maintain my 6am gym routine and could still workout before the babies wake up. LOL that's IF they sleep through the night which is rare. I'm eating shitty food out of convenience but also the holidays didn't help. My toddler actually needs to gain weight so we try to feed him calorie dense foods like lasagna, pasta, pizza which he likes. I end up eating the same thing because I don't have time to grill some chicken and steam veggies when he needs a bath in 20 mins. Being an involved parent to 2 babies while trying to maintain ANYTHING for myself is HARD. I admit that I've also been snacking on christmas cookies and junk food gifts people have given us.

I've still been going to the gym inconsistently with the thoughts of "anything is better than nothing." But one week I'll go 4 times a week and think "ok I'm back at it we're making progress!!" then the next week one of the babies has a sleep regression and I'm a zombie with 0 energy.

Today is day 1 and I'm determined to loose 15 lbs by the summer. I'm weighing myself daily to keep myself accountable. Tracking ALL my food and watching what I eat which I know is the biggest culprit. Any tips to eating healthy while also feeding kids is welcomed. Getting to the gym will still be hard but I will try my best to be more consistent.