Hella Specific Anxiety

Kay so like……..I’ve been meaning to ask this question for a while but…….ya know. Has anyone else experienced a super specific anxiety around the spring loaded inserters? I mentioned this to my endo and educator today and they are both also T1 but seemed shocked so just polling.

Around my junior year of high school (after 7 years in the classic™️ quickset sites) I started to develop a lot of anxiety around using the spring loaded inserter.

NOW. To be fair at the time I was part of a hella religious Christian cult/sect that still believes mental illness is a “sin temptation” and as a person who has since been diagnosed with mental disorders - that was part of it for sure. But it got to the point where during my freshman year of college I ended up in DKA cause I was using the same site for 2+ weeks at a time because I literally couldn’t bring myself to push the button on the inserter out of extreme fear.

After that incident I switched to the sure-T Medtronic sites (which are a manual insert that mitigates the anxiety and I have been in for the last 11 years) but am getting ready to switch to Omnipod 5.

I guess this whole tedTALK is to ask has anyone else experienced this kind of anxiety or is this just another unique one for me?