Heartbreak can kill you

I’m in so much pain right now. I was in a really complicated relationship and part of me knows after the way things ended I have to let him go but I don’t know how to. We became toxic in the end, it was messy and angry but complicated and full attachment and longing. He hurt me a lot but I still miss him. I know that’s stupid so you don’t have to remind me. But we had a soul tie. We slept skin to skin, we held each other while we cried through our depression, we basically lived together at one point. I lie in bed and imagine what it felt like when he used to hold me. I feel his lips on my shoulder, the way he used to hug me. I am so empty and hurt and depressed, I can hear the wind blow through my ribcage. I just- I feel like I can’t keep going.