i wanna rip my face off

i feel so disgusting. my face is horrendous. my nose is massive. my face is so unsymmetrical when i take inverted pictures it looks like my face is melting off. i go on tt and there’s always above average/average looking on my fyp and it triggers me so much. why cant i look average? why cant i just be normal looking?? why do i have to so hideous. and i’m not over exaggerating when i say this like oh it’s just ur body dysmorphia im literally the most disgusting looking person on this planet. nothing about my face is attractive/good looking. i have all the features that are considered “unattractive” big nose, big forehead small eyes uneven face ugly face shape. I AM SO FUCKING UGLY. LIKE IT SHOULD BE A CRIME TO LOOK LIKE ME. ON TOP OF THAT GOD MADE ME A FEMALE. WHY CANT I AT LEAST BE A FEMININE LOOKING ONE? I DONT EVEN WANNA BE GOOD LOOKING i just want to be average so i don’t feel like ripping my face off everytime i stare at myself in the mirror or taking pictures of myself. i’m such an unpleasant person to look at simply because of my face. it’s ruined my life, people who are average/attractive are the luckiest people to exist. u might have problems and issues but at least you don’t have to worry about feeling disgusting or unpleasant. i hate the way i look i wish i could change it but there’s no way. i’m born ugly i stay ugly plastic surgery isn’t an option because itsnot one feature it’s my entire face and i’m not rich. i cant change my face or make myself look pretty no matter how much makeup i put on or wear nice clothes because my features are disgusting. i envy good looking people so much. when i see them i just feel like dying inside i feel 10x more worthless and disgusting more than i already do. i feel undeserving and worthless i feel like a piece of shit simply because i’m ugly. god i wanna end my life. people say looks don’t matter it’s more personality but looks are what drawn people in and personality is what makes them stay. pretty privilege exists. when ur attractive people r kinder to you it’s easier to make friends it’s easier to be get in relationships. but when ur ugly confidence wont work u like that, you’ll get rejected for how u look unless ur at least 6/10. i’m below a 0. i hate my life so much. i’m depressed because of this i don’t take care of myself because i see no point in doing so, i don’t like dressing nicely because i look disgusting either way. i have no motivation to get out of my bed or brush my teeth. i feel so ugly that i don’t wanna take care of myself. i wanna stop feeling this way but i cant im so exhausted. i see no point in doing anything for myself, i don’t wanna get a job or finish school. i have no motivation i just rot in my room all day. i have no appetite anymore i’ve lost so much weight. i only eat when i get hungry which is rarely. i wanna end my life so badly.