Paradox of looking for a relationship?

Im just confused if its a good thing to try an go into a relationship if you don't have a crush on someone. I would like to have a wife someday. But I don't feel right dating someone who I don't feel like could be that someone. But I also may not know what I truely want in a relationship without relationship expirence(it could change overtime). I don't know when someone is "ready" for a relationship. Does a "broken and unhealed" person derserve love, are they selfish for searching for love knowing it will affect the relationship cause the other person isn't a therapist who can "fix" them. "focusing on yourself" is great for many things but somethings can only be taught with expirence. Dating is a skill and everyones first everytime related to dating is awkward in some way and you have to learn how to fix it. Tbh I've never had a "crush", just girls I've thought were hot, funny, sweet, great personality, etc. They are def out of my league and stuff but idk, didn't imagine myself marring them. I don't wanna feel like Im using someone for "relationship expirence"