I hate having a dog

I literally wish everyday that he crosses over. It sounds horrible but er have had him for 13 years. We have two kids, found out we both have adhd (parents) and one child possibly both. I just don’t have it in me to take care of him anymore. I resent my dog every day. He brings me no joy. All I see him as is a chore. I am burnt out and I don’t want a dog.

He has pancreatitis. So he’s on special food but all he does is try to eat human food obsessively I jjst can’t stand him. He makes the house dirty the yard is gross. I just want him to pass