Sexual problems (nsfw)

So I've had to get this off my chest for awhile because I'm ashamed of myself so I'm a 20 year old man and at a very young age I found porn and started masturbating which quickly lead down a rabbit hole of increasingly more messed up or kinky content it started with just normal stuff but eventually escalated to the point where I was watching wildly different stuff just to get it up like it started with fat assessment then it's furry porn then gay porn and most recently trans women and animated beastiality and like a week ago I finally just stopped watching porn all together cause I'm trying to fix myself then comes the bad stuff several times when I was younger I tired to have sex with animals which I'm very ashamed of but not as much as what else I've done I've tired to give one of my friends a blow job in his sleep and I gave my brother a bj when he was really drunk and the last two things so I would like to clarify I am straight I don't have any attraction emotionaly to men at all but sometimes I will download grindr just to get compliments and one time when on there I invited a guy over and I bottomed but the only reason I did it was because I had never had sex in my life with anyone and I just wanted to have a sexual experience with an actual human and not my hand or a pocket pussy If you made it this far sorry you had to know someone has done those things I am deeply ashamed of who I am and I'm currently trying to become a better person and I'm seeking redemption in the eyes of the lord