Not being believed

How did not being believed affect you? I'm years removed from caring or trying to persuade people.

But there's this sadness in my heart when thinking back about it. That sadness then turns into anger... Then acceptance.

It's just a recycling process. It feels like there was so much unnecessary suffering.

Those moments of reflection really do feel intense. It's not like I cause a problem socially. But I feel on the outskirts of every group and conversation.

I can be positive but it always feels like an act. I never truly at home.

I doesn't overwhelm me. But damn. I would be lying that it hasn't made me a somber and "flat" person in general.

I can still experience emotions and joy. But it's just meh, is this it? I'm grateful but after the intensity of the illness. I don't know... It's just not that satisfying